Thirteen

"I am both Jekyll and Hyde, don’t run away from me"

Hello dearies x It's nearly a month,is it? The feel isn't coming, and i had no attention to write these days. But today,somehow i've managed to write this.

Life is getting a little messed up,but it's fine. Well,you came bck to me. For once,i tried to listen to you but no,my heart is just ignoring those words you gave me. I replied it nicely,hoping that your heart will not break. You know,i just feel like being alone is the best way from me. I,myself are far away from freaking problems,problems in which i need to solve it myself. I just hate the fact that when i'm with someone who i love,there's always problems coming alone. I don't get it,i really do.

Well now,at least i'm not doing what i've been doing since ages. I try to adapt to my mind that this is just temporary and it will fade away. So,i've stopped doing that. But now i'm doing something even bad,something that i'll not tell anybody,because it's too bitter. If the truth is reveal,i know mostly none will friend me because you think i'm gross. Well,is that how "friends" work? You're here when he/she is happy,and one day when he/she is having a problem no matter how little it is,you turn away. Denying the fact that he/she is your friend. Well,that's just people these days. Problematic uh. 

For the record,i'm not intending to be the most good person in the world. Nope. I intend to be bad,just to see if they are people who wants to befriend me. That's how i roll. Friends do come and go like they're just a freaking paper. All they want is just to be happy with you and not be in the time when you're having a problem. That's all that matters. 

"There is a different person that’s not me inside of me
There’s a different me that’s not me inside of me"