Twelve

"Severely, I guess I loved you too severely

I don't even breath and I look around for you

I don't know when I'll be able to stop

I think letting you go is more severe than dying"

Hello beautiful creatures x Apologies for not posting up for a long,long time. I really miss typing up my thoughts,and read it all back. Hm,well lets get started.

I've always crying these days,thinking about all of those tacky stuffs around me. I feel stressed,so much. I don't know how can i manage these emotions,but now i'm a waste. I do bad things,trying them and making use of them wisely. How can you accept me? I'm a crap,a holy one. Not useful to any of you,unpredictable.

It seems peaceful,after i tried all these things,it calms me down. Yes,i'm the bad person now. I try to intend things weirdly,without everyone looking at me. I seem invicible to everyone,even in your eyes. Well,who does want to care about me? I'm wrecked,for sure.

Okay,let's take a deep breathe,i'll face new obstacles,new people,everyday. That's the fact. The more stress i am,the more unbelievable actions i'll do. You'll be shocked by just looking at what have i done. You're in for a maze. Loving you has made me realized,i'm imperfectly imperfect. Looking at my scars,wow none will want me. Look at my behaviour,damn right you'll reject me on the spot. So what's the purpose of being in love if none accept me with my flaws,all of them.

If you see face to me,you should see my hands,legs,neck. Full of scars,scars from fright,sadness and depression, You wouldn't know what do i feel this moment.You'll never know. You should tell me goodbye,and go on with your life that seems fine to me. I hope you're happy. As i stalk,i shed a tear because i see you're happy without me. When i was with you,the clouds of your life seems dark,and it poured rain,heavy rain. When i was gone,i see your life fulls with happiness,clear skies,rainbows,andi see you,laying down under a shady tree,smiling,relieved that i'm gone,forever from your life. 

Tell me goodbye.